Ive been thinking about getting baptised recently, but i'v been held back by knowing that i haven't fully accepted god - just because i can't accept that all that iv done in my life can be forgiven, and that god can love me for what iv done. I know he exists and that he does love me because i saw him and felt him at springy this year, but i just can't seem to accept him.
Im also wondering whether or not to change which church i go to, just because i feel people deal more with the politics of religion than ehat's important.
and lastly, im really confused about what to do after college.
prayers would be very very much appreciated.